How can you live when your baby has died?

I was pergnet with my baby boy. He was two weeks over due so I went to the hospital to see if everything was okay with him. When the doctor at winne palmer hospital in orlando florida checked me she said she could not find a heart beat. She deturmed that my baby boy was dead. How could of this happen I ask myself? He was just moving around inside of me just a few hours ago. I could not belive what happend. They indused my labor so I could give birth to my unborn baby. When he come out my husband said that they broke his neck and sholder. WHAT!! I though to myself. Even though he was deturmed deid how could they realy know? what if he was still alive inside of me but had a hard time brathing? I could not get made at the doctor I was to involded with my son holding him and crying. I held my son for hours and hours but it only seemed like minutes to me. I will never forget his little hands and feet and a full head of hair. and that look on his face when i saw him for the first time. HO god please help me to live with myself with what happend. I could have done something to pervent this i know i could of. I cry every day and i cant get to sleep any more with out seeing his face and blaming myself.